whatever it is lapis doesn’t seem too thrilled lmao
look how happy she is
Jasper was the one that was desperate for Lapis to fuse in the first place, yes, but Lapis CONTINUED to hold Jasper down as Malachite. The question is, why? She was surrounded by water anyway, so if they were to ever break free, Lapis could just easily destroy her. Jasper was by no means “sweet” to Lapis during their time as Malachite, but Lapis flat-out admitted that she liked taking things out on Jasper, even mentioning earlier that she “missed” Jasper. She took her anger from the past out on Jasper by KEEPING them as Malachite. Again, if Jasper were to break free, Lapis could just easily poof Jasper at that point, as they’re so far out in the ocean and they’re surrounded by water. It’s more along the lines of Jasper starting it and Lapis continuing it. Now Jasper is desperate to become Malachite again for power. She LOVED being with Lapis because she felt that only she could handle Lapis’ “power”. Lapis, of course, realizes that they should never fuse again and says in a concerned tone, “No!”. It really is great character development for her. While Lapis liked being Malachite after a while, she’s trying to break free of it so she can’t hurt Jasper anymore. Jasper is too deep into it and WANTS to fuse again because not only is she used to it, but it gave her a huge surge of power, kind of like Pearl and Garnet becoming Sardonyx.
They were both wrong, and the way the situation was handled was great. It’s been said before, but the ending of Alone at Sea is the perfect way to describe an abusive relationship to younger viewers.
I mean besides being BTFO in 3 minutes and being a total ass to Steven, she got like how Pearl did in Cry for Help. She probably never fused before, even during the war. That, or she hasn’t had that surge of power in a really long time besides Malachite. She got addicted to being really powerful. Her calling Lapis a “monster” felt more like a compliment from her than an insult. She actually likes Lapis because of her power. Lapis missed Jasper because she was the only thing she could take her anger out on. They were never meant to be for each other, but from this experience, Jasper’s even more power-hungry, probably because of how strict things were on Homeworld and being bound to Lapis as Malachite for so long. It’s the absolute definition of an abusive relationship.
“We could fly!” also implies that Jasper just got sheer enjoyment out of being Malachite because she could do whatever she wants. She had actual freedom outside of Yellow Diamond’s strict rules. It wasn’t necessarily “good” freedom, but maybe that can change in the future whenever she returns from being punched a mile back into the ocean.

Alone at Sea - First two minutes and screenshots