Anyone feel kind of bad for Jasper in this episode?

I mean besides being BTFO in 3 minutes and being a total ass to Steven, she got like how Pearl did in Cry for Help. She probably never fused before, even during the war. That, or she hasn’t had that surge of power in a really long time besides Malachite. She got addicted to being really powerful. Her calling Lapis a “monster” felt more like a compliment from her than an insult. She actually likes Lapis because of her power. Lapis missed Jasper because she was the only thing she could take her anger out on. They were never meant to be for each other, but from this experience, Jasper’s even more power-hungry, probably because of how strict things were on Homeworld and being bound to Lapis as Malachite for so long. It’s the absolute definition of an abusive relationship.

“We could fly!” also implies that Jasper just got sheer enjoyment out of being Malachite because she could do whatever she wants. She had actual freedom outside of Yellow Diamond’s strict rules. It wasn’t necessarily “good” freedom, but maybe that can change in the future whenever she returns from being punched a mile back into the ocean.